Phew!It's been a long and hectic week for me.Somehow or the other I always remained unsuccessful at updating my blog. So, here I am-finally-continuing to write my blog.

I finally went to Pune 2 days back on Tuesday.Mom made me promise to return the same day and so I returned that same evening itself-by intercity.

I had gone there with the intention of getting my documents back.As usual being my forgetful self,I had left all my documents there.I only came to realize this fact when I lost my driver's licence some days back.I was searching for a xerox copy of it,only to find out that i did not have any.

But,even though I got back my documents,I found out that I still didn't have a xerox copy of my licence.Unfortunately,now I have to go to my driving class and beg them to help me out.

Well,yesterday,I had a great time.Went to station side to deposit a cheque.On the way back called up my friend Pawan.Well,as usual he called me to Eternity Mall,which is near his house.

So I went there and we met and we walked around the mall and we talked and talken and talked for hours on end.Felt good.Pawan and me ,well, we go back a long way.We've been friends since college. Infact, since the first day of college.

I still remember that first day.Well that's a long story.Something to blog about on a lazy day.

Anyways,there was something special today and I didn't show any interest for it.I should have,but I didn't.Only wish things had turned out differently.But since the past can't be changed and considering that I have one more opportunity,I will give it my best.

I don't want to disappoint my parents further,but I only wish dad could change a bit, atleast now.

After so many years, he still hasn't changed and even though he has earned so much respect and has a fledging business,he is still overworking himself and giving no heed to his health or his life.

His company has overcome him and us. It's all that he thinks about day and night. He has no other life and in the process he has dragged mom into it too.

Life sucks!I wish I had not been born into this time and into such circumstances.God I wish I had more courage and more peace of mind.I know only I can change myself,but sometimes it is me-myself- who gets in my way.

Anyways 14 Feb approaching and that makes me feel even more insecure.Why do we need someone of the opposite sex to feel complete?!?!I mean ,I have many male friends who are very dear to me,but yet,I still clamor for that someone special.

It was then that I realized that only a woman-who can make one feel that special,that it's almost a high - can get him hooked on to that special emotion called love.

Anyways results are just around the corner and I wish they weren't.I hope they get delayed even more.(even though they're already two months late.)

But sometimes I wonder why I am fearing something as stupid as a result.

I mean it wont change the way I do things,will it?

It wont change the way I view myself,will it?

Or am I just worried thinking what others may say(Or think!) when they come to know about it?I dunno,maybe the truth is I do wanna see my result and that too as soon as possible.

I mean,I just want to get on with my life.I don't want to be a slave to other people's expectations as to how lives should be led.

Signing off.Hope to blog again soon.